Do Not Read (if you're squeamish)

i'm going to share a photo, and i apologize that it's pretty icky. It's a close-up of part of my stomach where i've been using a heating pad for a week solid due to the intense endo pain. i've been using it all day at work and most of the night (it's auto shut-off but i usually wake 2-3 times a night and start it up again because the pain wakes me). i've obviously gotten a pretty nasty heat rash, and while i knew i had a heat rash, i never noticed that i actually had scabs and have apparently been bleeding.

So, again, close this now if you don't want to see it.

i mean it.

Really...

(i'm stretching this out because i figure hopefully if you came straight to the blog that it'll be long enough that you'll have to page down to see the photo).

Okay, i warned you. Sigh. The saddest part is even when i realized how bad the rash was getting (not the bleeding but the black and blue-ness of it all), i didn't care. The pain was that bad.

Thankfully today things are getting a little better. Hooray! Hopefully it will stay bad until after surgery. Just... 10 days left.