i'm crying (again) for a friend of mine. She's been TTC about as long as i have, and had just had her (sort of) third IVF attempt, which failed. (The first something went wrong with medication and the embryos were frozen but didn't thaw well; the second there weren't enough follicles and the cycle was canceled. This was the first "fresh" cycle that went all the way through from start to finish, but the third time she had to go through the physical and hormonal torture of shots, not to mention the money!
And i really feel for her because i know she's a deeply religious person, and she struggled before IVF with the religious implications, etc. And now... heartbreak. i really, really, REALLY wanted this for her, not quite but almost as much as she did. i know she'll be a mom because i know God has a plan and i trust in it but i just KNOW. But i can't speed it up or release the pain for her and i really wish i could, even just a little bit.
Friday, September 3, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
So, yesterday was fun!
i met a friend online. Her name is MadameFancyPants, but i have seen her twice and neither time was in pants. What's up with that? But otherwise, she's awesome! lol. Anyway, her son is a few months younger than Charlotte and just started part-time at the same school. And she's going to be watching Char on the evening after month-end close at work, which this month will be Wednesday. So we played at her house and had a good time. Char seems to really like her, and likes her son also.
i also had a playground committee meeting yesterday, and it went well. They are really pushing the timeframe on this thing, wanting to get Phase 1 done this Fall/Winter, and wanting to get Phase 2 done next Spring. Phase 1 are things like willow tunnels, boulders, climbing/balancing stumps, a bridge, a rain garden, and some fencing changes. Phase 2 is a lot of work on the hillside including 2 slides, a climbing wall, a music wall, and things like this that are more costly and time consuming. i'm skeptical, but from what i've seen of the director so far, she'll plow through a mountan if she has to!
i also had a playground committee meeting yesterday, and it went well. They are really pushing the timeframe on this thing, wanting to get Phase 1 done this Fall/Winter, and wanting to get Phase 2 done next Spring. Phase 1 are things like willow tunnels, boulders, climbing/balancing stumps, a bridge, a rain garden, and some fencing changes. Phase 2 is a lot of work on the hillside including 2 slides, a climbing wall, a music wall, and things like this that are more costly and time consuming. i'm skeptical, but from what i've seen of the director so far, she'll plow through a mountan if she has to!
Friday, August 27, 2010
Another mixed day
Well, i've been sick. Again. Damned weak immune system. i did get the stomach bug and have been pretty incapacitated. Charlotte has been fine aside from the one vomit on Wednesday night, so she went to school today and came home with mixed reports.
First, she was bitey today. She's been biting at school a lot lately, more than she ever has at home. And she did it a lot today, and also pulled a child's chair out from under them :(. They even called her "aggressive" today. i wish i knew how to handle it, but if i'm not there, what can i do?
But the good news! The "oh my gosh i'm so proud" news! She went potty today at school! She said, "Potty" and then followed through. Bless the teacher who took her, too. i know it may not seem like that much, but for some reason i'm soaring. i had a feeling she was turning an EC corner and headed or PL (potty learning; hate the word "training" in reference to kids), and now i really think so. And it seems like her teachers may think so, too.
To the best of my knowledge, this is the first time she's said "potty" or gone potty at school. So, so proud of that. And a little ashamed of the biting.
First, she was bitey today. She's been biting at school a lot lately, more than she ever has at home. And she did it a lot today, and also pulled a child's chair out from under them :(. They even called her "aggressive" today. i wish i knew how to handle it, but if i'm not there, what can i do?
But the good news! The "oh my gosh i'm so proud" news! She went potty today at school! She said, "Potty" and then followed through. Bless the teacher who took her, too. i know it may not seem like that much, but for some reason i'm soaring. i had a feeling she was turning an EC corner and headed or PL (potty learning; hate the word "training" in reference to kids), and now i really think so. And it seems like her teachers may think so, too.
To the best of my knowledge, this is the first time she's said "potty" or gone potty at school. So, so proud of that. And a little ashamed of the biting.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Nosedive of a day
Started off geat. i lingered a little to play with Char, and we cuddled in bed for a minute. When i said, "i love you," she said "lalu". Alan was there and agrees that she was saying "love you". Yay!
Then it kind of leveled off for a while. Work was fine, still like my new job, but for a couple of days i've been feeling a little "off". Not really sick, but kind of like i was fighting something off.
Then i picked up Char to discover that she had bitten 2 kids, one breaking skin :(, and "there was some hitting involved." i hate this because obviously i hate that she misbehaved, but also i don't know what i'm supposed to do about it, you know? It's not like she's 7 years old and we can really have discussion after school. Sigh. The teacher even made excuses, saying it was a hectic day (the 2 teachers there are new and the Montessori-trained teacher called in sick, plus several kids have stomach bugs), there was a new kid in the nursery next door who cried all day, etc. She said, "Charlotte's a very bright child, always has that twinkle in her eyes, and i bet she picked up on the mood of the day." And she may be partially correct; we have definitely noticed that when the day starts out positively and happy, Char has a better day, and when it starts out grumpy, hectic, etc, she's fussier all day. Still sucks to hear, though.
And then we got home, and she wouldn't eat too well. She's getting a new tooth that's being problematic, and once again she doesn't like chewing. Anything (even her favorite fruit) that requires chewing, she would spit right out. i was saying, "Charlotte, we don't spit our food out" for the eleventy-thousandth time, when she puked up her whole dinner. Poor girl.
And then i was talking to Alan and rinsing the cloth i used to clean the mess in the sink, and the smell overcame me and i puked also. And then puked and puked some more. i think it's fair to say that we BOTH have the stomach virus that's been going around the school.
i hope i don't have to call in to work tomorrow. i've only been there 8 days so far for goodness sake. i did mention to my coworker that i didn't feel well, and brought my computer home, but i hope it doesn't come to that.
Still, i keep thinking about that "Lalu" this morning. It makes my heart sing even when my stomach doesn't.
Then it kind of leveled off for a while. Work was fine, still like my new job, but for a couple of days i've been feeling a little "off". Not really sick, but kind of like i was fighting something off.
Then i picked up Char to discover that she had bitten 2 kids, one breaking skin :(, and "there was some hitting involved." i hate this because obviously i hate that she misbehaved, but also i don't know what i'm supposed to do about it, you know? It's not like she's 7 years old and we can really have discussion after school. Sigh. The teacher even made excuses, saying it was a hectic day (the 2 teachers there are new and the Montessori-trained teacher called in sick, plus several kids have stomach bugs), there was a new kid in the nursery next door who cried all day, etc. She said, "Charlotte's a very bright child, always has that twinkle in her eyes, and i bet she picked up on the mood of the day." And she may be partially correct; we have definitely noticed that when the day starts out positively and happy, Char has a better day, and when it starts out grumpy, hectic, etc, she's fussier all day. Still sucks to hear, though.
And then we got home, and she wouldn't eat too well. She's getting a new tooth that's being problematic, and once again she doesn't like chewing. Anything (even her favorite fruit) that requires chewing, she would spit right out. i was saying, "Charlotte, we don't spit our food out" for the eleventy-thousandth time, when she puked up her whole dinner. Poor girl.
And then i was talking to Alan and rinsing the cloth i used to clean the mess in the sink, and the smell overcame me and i puked also. And then puked and puked some more. i think it's fair to say that we BOTH have the stomach virus that's been going around the school.
i hope i don't have to call in to work tomorrow. i've only been there 8 days so far for goodness sake. i did mention to my coworker that i didn't feel well, and brought my computer home, but i hope it doesn't come to that.
Still, i keep thinking about that "Lalu" this morning. It makes my heart sing even when my stomach doesn't.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Science Museum Pictures
i love these pictures! Char ran around like a crazy woman at the Children's Museum and was getting tired so i wore her at the Science Museum. That's my new wrap, a Vatanai Solsbury, in a Back Wrap Cross Carry with Chest Belt carry. Alan helped and the result was the best wrapping job so far with this wrap, which is narrower than my BB Slen woven wraps.
One of my favorite memories is when my oldest sister had swim meets at what i think is a small college next door or very close to the AMSE (American Museum of Science and Energy; i had the name wrong slightly), and my other sister would take me to AMSE through this little trail. Honestly the museum is kind of old and small and not that impressive but when i was little i thought it was tremendously cool. i hope Charlotte got a little something out of it, too :).
Museum Pictures
i was having computer problems yesterday and didn't type any words, sorry. Mostly i was having patience problems.
Alan and i are on a trip (right now i'm on the little sofa in the hotel room whilee sleeps; slept probably 11 hours and it's so cool we can both sleep in!). Charlotte spent the night with my sister last night. Alan and i will go get breakfast (or lunch, depending on when he wakes up lol) and then get her and go home.
We live in Nashville and we're in Knoxville now, so only a couple of hours and only for the one night, but it's a good way to get our feet wet since we've never left Char overnight before.
Anyway, these pictures are from the Children's Museum in Oak Ridge, TN, "the Secret City" aka the "Atomic City". The museum is nothing to write home about, especially with a toddler who doesn't give you time to read the writing. Much of it was about life in the Secret City in the 40's and beyond, which wasn't especially good for her to learn, but she loved the part at the beginning that had artifacts from different cultures.
Alan and i are on a trip (right now i'm on the little sofa in the hotel room whilee sleeps; slept probably 11 hours and it's so cool we can both sleep in!). Charlotte spent the night with my sister last night. Alan and i will go get breakfast (or lunch, depending on when he wakes up lol) and then get her and go home.
We live in Nashville and we're in Knoxville now, so only a couple of hours and only for the one night, but it's a good way to get our feet wet since we've never left Char overnight before.
Anyway, these pictures are from the Children's Museum in Oak Ridge, TN, "the Secret City" aka the "Atomic City". The museum is nothing to write home about, especially with a toddler who doesn't give you time to read the writing. Much of it was about life in the Secret City in the 40's and beyond, which wasn't especially good for her to learn, but she loved the part at the beginning that had artifacts from different cultures.
They said "everything is hands on unless it's roped in or glassed off", so we let her go!
Lookie! A giant African xylophone! She sure knew just what to do with it, too!
Check back with this post as i'll probably be adding more pics as my patience improves. We also went to the National Museum of Science and Energy, and i'll post a special post for it.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
"Bob Bob" Revisited
Who remembers that a few months ago Charlotte started calling Alan "Bob"? She was consistent for a good while, too. Today she explained who "Bob Bob" is...
Please ignore that hideous green bruise on her forehead. We had some "family" photos this weekend and she had to fall and hit herhead first. It's a law, naturally.
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